I've always found it difficult to develop my path. For someone who was scared of practicing until fairly recently, development is usually the last their mind.
As I said I have studied some form of paganism on and off for about 10 years. A large portion of that time I was living at home, or staying with other people and I never felt comfortable enough to start with an altar or practicing properly. When I finally had my own home with my husband it took me a good long while before I decided to have my own little witchy corner in the spare bedroom. Something I only set up last October. After I had got married I had sworn to myself that I was going to start studying properly and firmly set out my beliefs.
It never really happened, though I do have a better understanding of my beliefs, I feel it's more that my beliefs aren't not what they are. It's something I really want to work on, and I know I really need to give myself a kick up the bum study wise.
But where does a girl start? I suppose if one is looking to further their beliefs they should start with their basics and go from there. Which is a sound practice in theory, I can blog all my results here. But I think that my problem is that I require some kind of structure to my study, and I have no idea where to find it.
I have books that are set out in a "study" format, one is a Wicca Introduced Course which I'm not going to do, as I know that Wicca isn't where my path lies. I have got the First Degree of Witch School's Cornelian Tradition, and I know they offer basic student courses on a number of topics, so that might be worth looking into.
I also have Kate West's Real Witches Craft which is magical techniques and guidance for a full year of practicing the craft. Then I have access to other sources of free courses for herbs and tarot, and I have my crystals I'd like to learn properly too.
I think part of my problem is that I lack direction. I know what I want to study its just the how and the when. I can study fine for a week, but the next week I'll be distracted by something shiny on the internet, so how on earth do I stick to it?
I'm going to buy myself a notebook, to those of you who know me, this might not come as a surprise. I am a bit of a notebook addict, the prettier the better. I like taking notes, so I'll sit and take notes throughout my studies and try and post something a bit more coherent on here, show that I am learning!
If anyone has any topics they can suggest for something "different" then please do, or any sources for studying would be brilliant!
Best come up with some kind of schedule I guess...